This post has been one I have found very difficult to write. Looking at my post archive, I cannot believe I have let two months past without writing a single post. As I have stated in the title of this post, the first for a very long time, I am a bad blogger.
Why has it been so long? I reached a point where I suppose many bloggers find themselves eventually, wherein I became disillusioned with blogging. Suddenly, blogging becomes a chore and one finds oneself not looking forward to writing as one should but instead having to force oneself to write. That is certainly not an attitude that one should have towards a hobby.
Not only have I been unable to persuade myself to write, but I have also found myself at a loss regarding what to write. In short, I have been suffering from both reluctance to write, and a lack of inspiration. I would like to blame university and business for my lack of writing but, although it does play a part, it would not be entirely true. Certainly, after writing mountains of assignments, more writing is not at all appealing, regardless of the topic, but I cannot pretend that I haven't had plenty of free time during which I could have been blogging. I simply didn't bother. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months until it had reached a point where my blog, that which I had poured so much of myself into, had turned into this ugly great monster at the back of my mind. I would feel guilt for no longer posting, and would not even view the website for fear of what the analytics would reveal.
I missed blogging terribly. I missed my little corner of the internet where I could express myself and write my passions. I missed the pride it gave me, the purpose it gave me, and being able to tell people "I'm a blogger" when they asked after my hobbies. But finally, here I am, and hopefully for good. This first little post is my flag, my little shout into the void. Is anyone still here to read this? I truly hope you are. And if you are, thankyou for sticking with me.
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